Shaadi Season

It seems this blog is dying a natural death. Changing Times, Lotsa Work, more to do, more to think about. i don't know the exact reason. But Slowly and Steadily it is Phasing out.
Another nightover with me giving myself the company. ( I Me Myself Sallu Bhai Style). 
Another Sleepless night, no Work In hand, Nothing to Munch, Cool misty breeze from the window ,Dim lights and Sleeping Roommates. And i decided to square the circle,to jot down all the randomness in my head and to give a new life to the dead(Blog).

2012 is about to end. It's been an exciting year to say the least. 
Year when half of my facebook friend list got married . 
Year When i completed the dreaded MBA, 
Year when i met some very old friends.
Last month specially has been the most exciting. Both Baldies,my cousin Sisters and College friends getting married. 
As you could imagine i was over the moon at the thought of meeting Purane Yaar Dost. Memories of childhood got unwrapped.

Coming Back to the Shaadis
Shaadis trust me are no different from our Bollywood masala flicks.It has everything emotion,comedy,drama,dance,music etc.

From Always Cribbing Aunties with Tonnes of Make Up to Always Giggling Smiling Pretty Young Things Gyrating in Testosterone Boosting outfits to Uncles with 'I should have be in my room with glass and chakna' look to Sweaty Ladke in Baraatis Dancing like there is no tomorrow.

I enjoyed it All. Wedding season it was. 




Saw this Amazing Movie ' Life of Pi ' in 3D a few days back in Lucknow.
I had not seen 'Avatar in 3D and Practically hated 3D movies. 
But O Boy 'Richard Parker' and Company took us on an Adventurous ride in the Pacific which is Worth Remembering. Story of a Teen Surviving the Wild Pacific Ocean and his Bonding with the Royal Bengal Tiger.
The movie was visually mesmerizing. On Visual Effects alone, Life of Pi will likely land a nomination for Best Picture. A scene where a Majestic Blue whale breathtakingly jumps out from the calm sea, turning the waters is Simply Out of the World.

The Year 2012 is also about to end. Unfortunately due to some should have been avoided circumstances and my evergreen carelessness my Andaman Plan got cancelled. Keeping my fingers crossed waiting for some last minute miracle to happen.

Now to some more serious preachy Randomness in my head
Life is irreversible,insensitive and at time uncontrollable.
One moment i was dancing with joy prepared for something that was about to come my way. The very next moment it was not mine to claim. That doesn't really change anything, 
does it? Days pass by, Life goes on. Dilli jana shyad kismat me hi nahi likha hai :(

Anyway. I'm still the same person, trying very hard to be someone different. I hope whoever is reading this is alright, wherever you are.
Take Care !

Trip to Andaman !

Rahul 'the wall' Retired.
Countless blogs have been written heaping praises on Rahul's Dedication,Focus and Team man Spirit.
These few lines are also not going to be very different. If you hate Rahul Dravid You always have an option of closing the window/tab and surf Semi Nudes on TOI or may be stalk people on Facaebook or maybe Google 'Sachin Tendulkar' Records'.
Rahul accroding to me was greater than any tendulkar or ganguly if u talk of consistency , patience and Overseas records.
Generation coming may get blinded by the stats of some GREATS and probably will never realize the Impact of Innings played by Rahul Dravid on the Overall Outcome of the games.( Centuries too. Pun Intentional).
Countless times he has rescued INDIA when other STARS flopped. He scored runs in tough batting conditions and in overseas Tests that led to wins abroad, a phenomenon that till then had been pretty rare in Indian cricket.
Rahul according to me had still a lot of Cricket left in him. Just like Tendulkar century of Tonns or Bradman's average is impossible to emulate similarly filling Rahul's Number three position ( at least in INDIA) and living upto all the crazy expectations is next to impossible.

Mr Dependable You are Going To be Missed !

Sachin's Century of Tonnes.
INDIA lost to Bangaladesh. Still Whole India Celebrated. .
Don't want to start with the debate of INDIA losing whenever SACHIN scores. SACHIN is a Genius and a GOD's gift to Indian Cricket. I agree. But FACT still remains INDIA lost that match to Bangaldesh Thanks to Sachin Playing Slow for his hundred, Helped by some poor Indian bowling leading to something which surely wud have spoiled Sachin's Celebrations.
Trust me i am not a Random Sachin Hater who criticizes Sachin just to seek attention.

Life is getting Busy with every passing Day. Thanks To MBA and never ending Exams, i have missed Shaadis of very Close Friends. This Blog is not going to compensate my absence from your special day my Friend , neither is this a public apology for my absence. Trust me choosing between your marriage and *&%$#@! exams was a Toughie. I got Selfish and was blinded by the  "fear of Exams" :(
Hope you are going to be sensible and will understand my situation and not reciprocate the same actions :P
Everyone hates Exams. But My dear friend my absolute HATE for Exams has ten folded now.
Most importantly Your intentional silence over the issue makes me feel more miserable and i want to DIE. Off-course i don't like the idea of dying and if i do die too young , i hope i can accomplish enough things that makes you happy.

Titanic 3D Version is releasing  very soon. Leonardo Di Caprio is now a huge name in West, Kate Winslet is now less chubbier and more Rosier. But is this the reason enuff to watch the EPIC 'YET AGAIN' on the big Screen.
'Are they Going To See the ICEBERG this time Now that They are releasing it in 3D.'
Total Waste of Money , Time and resources If u ask me what this 3D version is.


Moving on to some more Serious Career Related Section.
Met a friend after a Long time...He Recalled his Horrid Office Story
I always believed Office is where boring people do boring stuff. Reading Files,signing documents, meetings and what not.
'His' brief stint at a company further personified 'my' belief.

" I never had any sky high expectations. But guess that also was a bit too much to ask for.
Office Guy can be a metaphor for a person who lacks in human characteristics like honesty,loyalty,emotions.
You always has to do 'Sir Sir' for the people higher in the food chain or else be prepared to get eaten.
If you are truly focused towards your career, office is going to be energizing and great fun. This is what i forced myself to believe. But you can't close your eyes forever and chase the ideals which don't exsist. Surroundings do takes their toll on you.
No matter how much u slog, no matter how many times u pass fake smiles whenever he passes, no matter how many times you have accepted the mistakes which were never yours at the first place.... BOSS is never HAPPY. ORGASM is what he expects but sadly you never last that long.
On a Lighter Note Some Times I feel like suing NAUGHTY AMERICA people for projecting an Office image to Indian Youth which is So far from Reality.  "  He Said.
( Above description is Not Mine. So don't jump the gun and get any wrong ideas. All Workplaces are not the Same :P )


Best thing that has happened to me in all these months probably is 'THE TRIP TO ANDAMAN'.
it has given me a reason to live till the next year. Can't Wait for 31 st December 2012 .
Far away from the 'Hoo Haa Hoopla' of the City, from the over crowded smoke filled Discs and Pubs, from Scantly Clad Girls and their Macho Boyfriends .... this New Year has to be different.
My First favour of the New year is to Gift myself 'Peace Of Mind'
Clean Air, Transparent Water, Coconut groves, Soothing Waves, Bright Sunshine. I Have not heard many things about Andaman. Last time i saw Andaman and Nicobar islands It was in my Geography Books.
And i am Serious about taking my Chances this Year. Anyone who wants to join the bandwagon can Always reach me on my cell.

Waiting for your Fair and insightful comments :D

Have a Great day Ahead....Tadaaaaa !!!

Hasta-la-vista

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My Tryst With Truth !!!

Its 5 in the Morning Here. Have a exam today in afternoon but somehow i am not able to cocentrate SO TYPICAL OF ME and it is rather unusual for a guy like me to write a post at this time.10000+ plus thoughts are going in my mind...It’s like all of a sudden the “thinking” part of my brain is more active without even wearing a thinking cap, Probabaly i Should BLOG.


First things first...I hve some serious issues with my hairs. YES you can very easily say i am paranoid about them. Yes I do. I am not a baldie though…No I am not, neither am I on my way to becoming. However something unusual happened yesterday i went to meet a friend.He came to pune after four or maybe five years. first thing he said was 'abe tere baal jhad gaye kya aur saley mota bhi ho gaya hai tu'. i was like OMG i am obese i know that but i am balding thats new to me.Although it amazes me how the sensible and insane part of me can actually fight over such a trivial issue like falling hairs, and finally it leads into more Frustration.
Ohh And for those who are wondering what I did next. I didn’t wait there for more than half hour before I said to him thank you! …He said these two words putting more salts on to my wounds as it were… “Khyaal rakhna!” …I said “F U” in my head.


Now to some more serious issues. I have a thought prevailing in my mind and i cannt stop admitting it. I have a feeling about my friends. How strange is the fact that People always leave. I had come to know about the fact this night. How foolish i am really. Whatever goes on in my mind is not all rubbish.No one stays forever.
There are sometimes in your life when you have to move aside all the knowledge to make way for your beliefs. and Beliefy defies my knowledge here. belief says we are still the same but facts say something different.


This is the second time i have felt lost.I have to fix almost everything in my life, I don't know how!! Friends say, Let it be, 'Sab Theek Ho Jayega' ... but When? How? Results, disappointments, Career, Friends, Family !
There are some tough decisions to make and a tougher time to face. The worst thing is to know that you have been a stupid till now and it is you who is responsible for everything, first, spoil everything for yourself and then look for some ways out of it.


This was a brief review of all the melodrama of my own shitful life which could have been worse thanks to the uncertainity in the exams ( not many people will understand what i meant here. no fault of yours)


Enough of those serious talks :P
Came across this beautiful comic strip on FB

And Yes Some one also shared a pic on facebook of mahatma gandhi dancing with a white lady.

It heartbreakingly amazes me is the tendency to update 'status' in a fraction of a second spewing venom about someone even if you don't know the person. 
i don't know mahatma . I was not fortunate enough to see the person but honestly it deeply saddens me when people without even knowing the facts make a irresponsible statement and share something absurd, hollow and vague just to get some attention . In Doing so they question there beliefs and there motives and deny them the respect which they deserve. Mahatma was a leader and lead the movement of freedom with Great intergrity and courage.I am just one of the Billions of those dreamers who grow up in life with a dream of achieveing something as great as what Gandhi ji did.
Mahatma Gandhi and Bhagat Singh, two Legends of the Indian freedom movement and inspirational leaders who laid down their lives for the freedom of the country. Committed as they were towards the goal of India's freedom from British rule, But still Genration X gets up and questions Gandhi ji's ways and Bhagat singh's ways.
'Arey pehle khud kuch karo aisa desh k liye tab aake baat karna.'
Though I am not totally convinced with everything he did.. but he was in general a Good Person.. much better than many. 
Mahatam Gandhi, Jinaah or Bhagat Singh who is more Secular or Communal we don't have enough proofs to draw any conclusions. Some people Say that Nathuram Godese's testament. So You are willing to Ignore all the Great work Done by The Mahatma On the basis on 10 page testament. Really !!!
Is it enough to bring him under trial and to judge him guilty of not being a patriot and honest person ?


India Against Congress. 
Everybody love to blame the congress for anthing and everything these days.
 Be it Rajeev, Nehru, Sonia or Rahul no one is spared. A few months age he was looked upon as a future leader by the media nd the nation and all of a sudden he is enemy no 1.
Stop envying RAHUL GANDHI. Politely speaking the sooner you accept the fact that he was born with a silver spoon  and you weren't, the better it gets for you. Stop blaming him for the anarchy in the country and for everything that goes wrong in this nation, however rotten they are.I have special sympathies for people with status updates: 
1) India against congress 
2)Rahul's Mafia GirlFriend
3)Sonia's past life.
4) Swiss Bank Revelations about the Indian Money.
 Trust me People, you're not funny( at least to me)and at the same you also aren't doing anything for the cause. In the age of Technology its so easy to manipulate people and fool them . THANKS to the MEDIA.
By saying this i am not saying what Anna ji is doing is wrong. We stand United aginst corruption but a line has to be drawn somewhere and i am pretty sure half of the people in the movement don't even know what the main agenda is. This is the main concern.


Sachin yet again failed to cross the 100 Ton mark. fans were stunned into silence at the Feroz Shah Kotla stadium when Sachin Tendulkar once again missed out on his 100th international ton... But india did managed to beat the west indies.
He He He GOD Deinied West Indies to be the part of the History


There are many mysteries which are unolved like 
a) the mystery of bermuda traiangle, 
b) mystery of sachin's glorious career, 
c) mystery of fauja singh great health 
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d) mystery of PARMINDER SINGH scoring well in exams. 
How he manages, when he studies and what goes inside his head at the time of exams is completely alien to me. 

Ra one: OHH  how  can i miss this :p
People and there Love to pull SRK down.Even before the movie got released there was a lot of negativity for the movie which baffles me.
I was amazed to observe how random people on FB were totally clued into the business prospects of the SRK starrer. Not just that they are glad to share the innumerable jokes around Ra.One which have been making rounds of internet and SMSs.  Arey Problem kya hai Yaar. If a film is perfect then no amount of negativity can really bring it down. However, this hasn't really been the case with Ra One which does have its own flaws.
But at the end of the day despite all the odds movies fared well and managed to earn decently at the box office.


Signing off Now. Have my paper at 2 in the afternoon. Have a Great Day ahead.
Tadaaa !!!

Panda Singh !

I don't remember when it started or who started or why it started.

The relusive, anti social , non partying person i am . I deserve to have a very few friends. I have a small set of extremely special skool friends, college friends, company friends and relatives. Friends from all stages of my life so far.

But one special friend deserves a special mention.

She is a friend, a sister, a mentor, a ray of hope and happiness to me.

She has bundles of energy(Female SRK)...She is sweet and cute also has a super electric 440 watt smile.

Nice to me at all times... She also Keeps in touch me no matter how i much ignore her. and i still don't know why?

Keeps pulling my leg for anything and everything... Expert in cracking the silliest jokes possible...Makes me listen to Alienist music possible which i don't understand.

Uncontrollable at times...no matter what mood i am in. weather i am sulking,feeling low or felling left out...when she is around there is bound to be happniess around me.

She always has a stamp of authority and surity in whatever she says...the confident girl she is.

Has a aura of a superstar. Has lots of friends.and most importantly all her friends geniunally like her and come to her with there problems. She always goes out of the way to help them .... Probably she is the nicest, gentlest soul on earth.
A Voracious Reader, Great Dancer, Singer and at the same time Brilliant in academics. Multi Talented and Multi Faced Personality.

This small write up is my acknowledgement to her presence in my life. A friend with heart of Gold and the biggest chatter box i know 

I love how you always text me with a “Hey Pandu!” and I can imagine your tone. Today I dedicate this blog post to you Panda Singh aka 'Dosto ka Dost' and 'Dushmano Ka Pakka Dushman'. Its Greatness written all over you. 

Boring Sundays !

Why are Sundays so Boring and dull?

They say a well spent sunday brings a week of content.

But All i do is Sleeping...Facebook stalking and eating.

i really actually don't know what to do on sundays. One boring sunday afternoon made me realise what a waste i had been till now. What a waste Sundays had been for me so far.

i made an impromptu decision to do someting constructive on this sunday at least. May be i sould i pen down my  free flow of thoughts in my conscious mind.

i Mean for how long can i stare at random beauties on facebook ( hopefully it's not as creepy as it looks...all females reading this every guy no matter how seedha he appears spends at least 2-3 hours appreciating beauties online).

So if you also share the same problem of sundays and looking for some interesting weekend reading may be i can help you.

Gone are the days when i absolutely like a maniac used to wait for sundays. When i had a list of things to do.

From watching a my favourite Tom and jerry cartoon to visiting my friends.

From eating 'GolGappas' on a 'thela' to watching a newley released hindi blockbuster . From painting to playing pranks on friends.

From going out early in the morning for cricket sessions to staying up late watching Dravid and Sachin smashing bowlers all around the park.

Sundays had a different meaning for me. It was different from MOndays , tuesdays and wednesdays

But with changing times Meaning of Sunday has also changed. Sunday no longer is a 'FUN'day...now i 'Fear' sundays...Sundays makes a small town person like me realise how small i am. when all i have is my laptop resting on my inflated belly to give me company.

No matter weather you are a suvccess or a  failure there is a sense of insecurity in everyone. all the days of the week we are surrounded by people but sundays makes us realise that we are lonely hunters,and gives us false hopes taht somewhere a feast will be laid for us too. 

In big cities no one is quiet but many are lonely ... in the small towns, people are quiet but few are lonely. People look happy cheerful outside as correctly shown in the movie 'Life in a Metro'.People appear always happy, and good at what they do, but what we never realize is, they are damm good actors too and experts in faking.

They say 'Khaali Dimmag Shaitaan ka Ghar' ....Sundays allows Bakwaas Thoughts to creep in mind.  

Contraray to popular percepton i never have Monday blues blues.in fact i wait for mondays thanks to Dull sundays. 

Never hold strong opinions about things we don't understand fully.People see things differently, there's no denying that...one individual may perceive Sunday in a completely different way than i do.

But this does not means its all fun lost for me...

good things about Sunday is i can take a late night satuday night bath. :P

Sunday Morning is an opportunity for anyone who is ready to take a break from our drinking culture and find out what life is like without a hangover.

Sunday is a opportunity to get rid of stalking your ex online . I know its difficult but certainly not impossible.:P

Sunday means Maggi Day and break from routine Dal Rice.

Sundays gives us opportunity to look back in retrospect and correct our mistakes. 

Sunday means escape from brushing teeths and bathing.( thanks to late night saturday bath)

Chalo I am going out for a leisure Sunday Walk and for a GolGappa Session(Old Habits Die Hard).

Hope it has been a fantastic weekend for everyone!

Your Views on Sunday are most welcome.

Take Care

Hi Again !

Its Exam time again!...Late Nights Mugging up sessions, Late night Maggi wid Chai
I Hated exams since i was a kid. Proves i was a very normal kid .Many Things have changed in me i do not like milk any more,i don't like excercising anymore i have started to hate bollywood more than anything else now thanks to Salman Bhai. One thing howver is still the same my absolute hate for exams. 


Been off the blogging arena for two months now !  place which used to be my escape route from a artificial world.


Reason 1: Absolutly noting to express. 
Reason 2: MBA.
Reason 3: imdb.com (Cynical cinema buffs...Hollywood and french cinema which has been churning out quality movies at amazing speed keeps me hooked )


Sometimes i think MBA? What after MBA...The closest to acceptable answers are fat pay cheques and network of friends (at least i think so). If grades are any indicator of the cheque's flab, mine is bound to be severely malnutritioned. And networking :( Being a introvert rarely helps. Being an introvert in an extroverted world is a 'Sin'..i must tell u. 
I travel with the crowd that throws huge heavy words like ‘civic sense’ and ‘etiquette’ in a split second. The crowd that changes colors like a chameleon. The crowd that does “upar neeche” with the friends without the slightest of hesitations.The good old times were so bloody different.


Chulbul 'Robin Hood' Pandey is taking the market by a storm, a tsunami rather. cheap, sleazy, double-meaning flicks with a difference works for salman. Everybody around is going gaga about him...Salman Bhai Salman Bhai ! Wondering How Ra-one and Don2 will fare at the box office...what is apna Aamir bhai upto these days?


Indian Cricket Team i hear is doing wonders in England...HAve no Television here. Friends and cricinfo however keeps me updated. Heard Sachin sehwaag and other eleven players are injured ... and i always thought england is a club team. We are world champions in true sense.


On Personal Front i am Bored of living life.Bored of lving away from my family...away from my friends. I remember the day i completed my engineering i was dying to go out and explore the world. But i realise now lack of interference, living on your own terms, calling your shots in the day today activities...one does feel powerful and like a free bird but this euphoria only lasts for a while.I"ve moved into a phase where Friends are getting busier in there own lives and i am tiered of partying aimlessly  on the weekends. This i believe is the most vulnerable phase in my life topped up with financial or personal turmoil.
Life has become Hectic(Read Boring), 'Pressure' is the word of a average day. 


LAst two weeks however were amazing. Was back in Mumbai-The Mayanagri .City full of life and exuberance, a city that never sleeps.  Friends came down from B'lore and i was back in being usual me.Hanging out with friends. Sight Seeing which i usually find boring was exciting this time. GAteway ,Marine drive...Bandstand were looking more beautiful in Mumbai Rains. I fell in love wid Mumbai all over again.

Signing off now...have my internals from tomorrow ! Pray for me, stay healthy and most importantly Cherish your family and friends as you never know when they are gone forever.  Tadaaaa !!!

Dil Kya Chahta Hai !

Focused. Thats is one thing I am not. My friend says, I am focused. I wonder. 

I am a jack of all trades, I try doing something new every few days. Some days its cooking, other days its working out, some other days, its reading, someday its writing, other days singing. And so much more. I am fond of doing many things. But I don't focus on a particular thing. Nothing.

I loose interest easily. That makes me a great explorer but it hampers me mastering anything. 

Except the Masters Degree I have. That too I guess has gone for toss. 

My mom said, 'education, you can never forget'. Somehow, I found out I have forgotten the subject I topped the University in. I couldn't recall solving simple sums. Yes, sums. Lack of practice may be. or Focus lost. 

I wronged my whole base of my academic life. I never crammed. I believed in understanding concepts- theory or practical. But I just couldn't recall the simple solutions of simple problems. And they felt like playing LUDO when I was the student.

There is no focus. May be, I don't want to focus. May be, I loose interest because I haven't found something that can keep my interest intact. probabilities. Lots of them. Talking of probabilities, I think I wouldn't remember how to solve a probability problem either.

I miss my life !!!

I've have been facing trouble lately with understanding basic human emotions. I feel, don't get me wrong. m not saying I'm absent of any emotion. it's obvious that I'm not. I just haven't felt the good ones in a really long time. So long actually that I don't remember what it's like to feel well. It's been like that ever since I was younger. A good feeling isn't something that I've ever been able to keep around for longer than brief moments.


The last few months have tried my patience with 'getting better' and 'fixing' myself. I guess I've been past the point of really thinking I can fix myself for awhile. Sometimes I just get hopeful that things will be better for me. My life isn't shit, my brain is. My 'relationships' are shit. I sit in my room every day, before, in-between and after classes. Alone. I like my time alone. I value it. When the time comes that I need to reach out, I do. I get in close, ruin whatever situation I get into, then get used to being alone all over again.


I'm stuck in a cycle. I try to think and decide what I want, or to understand myself. I can't do it. My mind doesn't work that way. I can't remember if I've ever been able to understand myself. Honestly, I don't know what it is to have deep rooted opinions in anything. In general I can like or dislike something, but to really understand and pick my own brain just doesn't work. It kills me to know that I can't 'think' like everyone else.


It's not my fault this happened. I don't have it in me to trust anymore. You ruined that. You're still not doing the right thing, and don't tell me I'm wrong. I know it's true.
It's not funny how the world works, though it has given me full incentive to finally cut ties with everyone. Time to make my move. But confusion is still in the air... should i...should not I !!!

Chotu ki Baaraat...!!!

Had an awesome last few days...was back in lucknow fr my younger brother Chotu's marriage.


Initially it was a bit awkward fr me with all mama mamis chacha chachis around...
i ws confused as i m not used to so much attention...privacy was missing
all frinds and distant relatives flocking up...
bua nani didi bhaiyaa everyone around was having a joyous time.


i was happy but did not know how to mix up with everyone...as i am a very private person and if not always most of the times make sure that i keep my feelings emotions in check.
Being under the constant and immediate attention of the people was making things difficult for me.I am surely not a social chameleon...if i don't like someone... i don't like him/her. I can't change the way i interact with some people depending who they are with. 
if i am around my friends i can be more of my self than i can be with my relatives, its actually not changing who i am, just respecting my family.
however chotu made things easier fr me...thanks to him the ice ws broken between everone.


Problem however i guess was with me.I was too conscious of what the other will feel and say, when in fact the other is not affected or even knowledged of the situation. It is the coldness with which we, from our early years of blank and blind innocence,  send the right signals and soon enough all else threatens to fall in place. 


Met a didi after nine long years...Bhaiyaa came all over from london just to attend the marriage. Nani(s) were with dholak singing songs...My college school company friends were also there. Bhai's frnds came frm b'lore,delhi,noaida,germany
He surely is a popular guy :)
Papa n Mummy were busy receiving guests.
Relatives came frm ballia allahabad varanasi delhi noaida nagpur calvutta b'lore mumbai.


Baraat ws Fun ... bhai's frnds were in their elements.
Papa Mummy too danced. Papa is a very reserved person, seeing him forget his worries fr sometime and dance was really heartening.
Babhi Bhaiyaa chacha chachi mama mami everyone had fun.


Best part was that i was able to meet everyone under one roof.
I always used to think that i was more close to my friends as i can be myself in front of them. But this wedding i must say brought me close to my family Friends and relatives.
Admiration for my Papa keeps growing with every passing day. He surely is a family person and most important;y a organised person. I knows he loves us a lot even though he rarely expresses it.


Its 8:30 in the morning...have to attend a call n make a few presentations...so Time to end for the day.

I am Sad

I am confused to the core...
Here i am sitting with red swollen eyes...have become a reclusive,more undesirable,obnoxious person 
after yesterday's disaster i am wondering can it get any more bad.
is this the end of the down swing...or just the beigning.


Small things have started to bother me...
failure is devastating... and it has really starting to take its toll on me,
i can't stand my friend's bad mood anymore(m nt naming him)
things went wrong somewhere...only i am to be blamed for this.
i should have been more cautious...


it will take some time for things to come back to normal
i'll have to battle demons of the past.


only solution is...
"MASTI Kam STUDY more"  :)

My First Attempt in Blogging !!!

Hello Frnds,


First of all,a BIG THANKS fr reading my first post.
I am truly Blessed to have you in my BLOG AREA  :):)
With every X,Y,Z around me is blogging...but somehow this idea of blogging never excited me.
i am more of a 'Into my own World'...'Taare Zameen Pe' Type of a person.
Some frnds asked me to write a blog...to share my thoughts...i ignored it


It ws Till Only Yesterday when i saw ****** , Dumbest person i've ever cum across...writing a blog. WTF...am i missing sumthing...what joy can a person get by penning down his own thoughts
they do it on FB,Twitter...but Blogging ???? 
Just so many ‘why’s’ started to throng the mind. I Ignored th Idea again.  :(


But this boring afternoon made me do the impossible...nothin to do...no frnds to go out with...
Probably i should give it a shot.  YES lets give it a try. 


So here am I frnds,
I'll try to be more regular and and meaningful to what i write.


CHEERS,
MANU