The Inevitable...

This post is dedicated to people I have loved and lost.

We meet people who we think are compatible to us. Who understand us, who complete us. With who, we can share our deepest, darkest secrets. With who, we can be ourselves. We can verbalize our stupid-est of thoughts and deepest desires with them.
I too have met some people like that.

However Sadly then inevitable happens...
I was always holding onto people, and they were always leaving
We meet people,We like them,We try to give our best, Jealousy steps in, We get hurt, We fall out, People move on.

When I was a kid, the thing I wanted most was... I wanted to be important to people...to have people that understood me. I wanted to just be close to somebody. And back then, a thought would go through my head almost constantly: "There's never gonna be a room someplace where there's a group of people sitting around, having fun, hanging out, where one of them goes.
That'll never happen. There's nothing interesting about me." I just felt like I was a sad little boring thing.

Fact of the matter is... the time you feel lonely is the time you most need to be by yourself. Life's cruelest irony. No somebody will help you.

For now my main goal is to stay alive. To keep fooling myself into hanging around. To keep getting up every day. Right now I live without inspiration. I go day to day and do the work because it's all I know. I know that if I keep moving I stand a chance. I must keep myself going until I find a reason to live.

Yaad ata hai !!!

Barsaat ki boondon ka balcony pe rakhe chai ke cup mein gira karna yaad ata hai

COMICS ko bagal me chuppa ke, skool ka HOMEWORK karna yaad ata hai. 

Shaam ko tez Baarish me baahar nikalne par, maa ki gaali yaad ati hai
Baal Sukhaati, Bheegi hui kurti mein bholi surat wali bagalwaali yaad ati hai.

Pant ghutno tak mod ke, gola maar k FOOTBALL khelna yaad ata hai
Paise jod jod k chup chup ke, skool k baad choley bhatoore khana yaad ata hai 

Baalon mein Gel laga ke, khud ko SHAHRUKH sochna yaad ata hai.
World cup me TV k samne SACHIN SACHIN ! chillana yaad ata hai.

Dosto k sath skool ke peeche ke seat pe gaane gana yaad ata hai
Devdas bane dost ki mohabatt ko chup chup ke, LINE marna yaad ata hai.

Exam time me der raat, jag jag k padhna yaad ata hai.
Pocket money k liye papa k pair dabana yaad ata hai

Ghar se dur rhu to, gharwaalo ki baatein sochna yaad ata hai
Jaaney kab masti bhare dino se nikal k bada ho gya mai

Yaad ata hai !!!

Humble and Inspiring !

May be it is prepared and practiced...but somehow i can feel every single word he says. There is a lot of romanticizing which goes on after one is a success but still his words are poetry to me...simply SUBLIME !!!

Me Vs World

Many times i feel i have no sense of direction.
Just going with the flow. aimlessley wandering in search of the unknown :(
Meanwhile others around have get on with life...slogging toiling in there line of work.
Those are the times when I am stranded, and realise that the others have found it all.

Sometimes I feel like i know the direction and in control of the situation.I believe in my instincts and do/say/act what i feel is right.
And then, the others do not agree with me.
Those are the times when I am stranded, and realize that the others have found it all.

ENough of the confusion. I know i am not special but i also know i am not normal. i never was i never can be.The innocence finally got stained and the image of the world around shattered before my eyes. 

I Believe I shall not fit in.
Taking your leave hence my friend!

 Will Go on, take my own road. 

I know the path is not going to be easy and the friends are going to be few.  

Still, Will go on singing the "Har Fikra ho Dhuve me udaata chala gya" the best way i possibly can,
 It will give me a feeling of content someday perhaps.

NOTE:  I am not DRUNK

Chota Baby Aryan ! Baby Who Never Cried.

Turning 30...

I am knocking on the door to the other side of adulthood…yes, I’m turning 30!  UGH!  Some people welcome this idea, some people totally freak out (that’s me) and some don’t even think about it (totally wish this was me).  Every person has their own way of coping with the idea that they will no longer be in their 20′s (OMG I just got nervous).

My twenties could best be described as me doing whatever the hell I wanted to do. During this decade I basically completed my entire bucket list, including a lot of things I never thought I would do.

 I can’t even tell you the amount of times I made a huge deal out of this shift into a new decade. Nine times out of ten, I did nt wanted to go in next decade and stay forver in my 20s. Continue Partying and Enjoying Life.
As for me, my 20s were amazing.   In between all of life’s important moments, the bullet points on the broad timeline of this past decade, there’s been a whole lot of figuring it out – “it” being, you guessed it, life. Now, at the fairly young age of newly-30 I still have a long, long way to go, but I am fairly certain that as my life goes on, I will look back to my 20s as a time of self-discovery. And if that is indeed the case, then I am hoping that my 30s will be a time to enjoy all of the “stuff” I figured out.
I was scared of 30 because it feels like the end of youth, that it’s a distinct marker between being young and getting older. 

I hate turning 30 but then u cannot stop the clock ticking. i wil have to get adjusted.but still i have decided to keep acting the 20s and not panic.
dekha jayega

Bring it On :D

Love Life Etc...

There are times when some obsessions creep up on you...you don't pay them much attention and thought and think of yourself as silly until one striking moment when you realize they're the greatest thing you've ever come across.
Memories are what we remember about happenings in our past. These events or happenings might not be exact, or complete. They may even be distorted, And they can be incomplete or inaccurate in many ways. Some people remember the big picture, some remember the details, some remember the words, and some lucky ones remember nothing. But i still remember you.

Never in my wildest dreams did I had thought I would meet you and you would captivate and win my heart at "Hello".You are special to me with qualities that drive my desire for you far beyond any imagination. The Laugh, The Smile, The Tinkling Eyes, The Concern, The List is Endless.

I was always afraid that ppl  will stab at my heart...I kept it closed off n did not let anyone come near it. Until,  I met you ... I had a feeling that something is different, something would stop the constant pain, and I allowed myself for that small instant to trust someone and eventually unknowingly fall in Love. 

You are my sunrises and my sunsets. You are my world. Those Long Strands of Hair lightly blowing in the breeze and the sun bouncing off your face making your eyes sparkle like stars in the midnight sky you captured my soul, my heart without speaking a word or even knowing.

Tonight as I struggle to sleep All I can do is think of you Wanting to hold you in my arms and kiss your tender lips. Tears slowly cloud my world As I hold my pillow tight Wishing you were beside me to make things right.I cry myself to sleep Having dreams of you with me. While I'm looking in your eyes My heart skips a beat. You're the one Who makes me feel this way You're the only one Who helps me day by day Understand the purpose Of this life.

I love the way you kiss me, your lips so soft and smooth.I love the way you make me so happy,And the ways you show you care.I love the way you say, "I Love You" and the way you're always here for me .I think of you each morning And dream of you each night.

Time will pass n keeps on changing  My time here on this planet will also end someday. Time for me to leave and go.
That day will come when i wont be here. That day when you have a problem u wont be able to meet me or call me to ask for help.
That day when u want to send me a message i wont ever receive it. 
That day when you cannot tell me stories about XYZ. That day when i cannot tell you how awesome you cook and look.
That day when i am not here i wont be able to tell u that i love u so much and  i cherish every moment i have with you. Never regret anything we did.

I have said lots of I love yous Have given you lots of kisses and hugs I have given you my all But still those are just not enough. Through good and bad times Nothing can keep us apart.
I will never leave you.
No matter what happens I'll always be true.
Though times may be rough and days may be tough I'll stick with you through and through until the next life...

My world is a beautiful place to live in. Sometimes i sit back with a cup of tea and ask this question to myself -What in this world would I do without you? I hope to never find out the answer to that question.